Fuck if I know.
I hid the rest after the jump. It’s funnier that way.
In light of all the projects I have lined up, all the things I want to do and all the time I don’t have, why bother with this everyday?
I honestly don’t have a really good answer for that. I have mediocre answers for that, but nothing solid. It only bugs me when I’m busy, my brain hurts, and I’m tired and all I can think about is why I made this stupid leap into posting one of these everyday. A couple times a week I want to walk away and pretend like none of this ever happened, and I try to remember why I keep at it.
Mostly, it amuses me. Actually, that’s the reason I do 99% of the things I do, and why I write what I do. It amused me to do so at the time. Blogging like this, day after day, is a challenge, but I was curious about what this would look like after a year. What content would I create? Would I stick with it? How would the blog change, day after day, month after month? In a year, I will have a pretty damn good measure of my voice. Of course, by that time you’ll all be tired of me yelling into the void, but that’s the best part of the internet. So you don’t like my blog? Don’t read it. This is my challenge and this WP site my record and next April, what will I have accomplished?
Also, this is a good outlet. I can explore ideas and expression and vent and love within the confines of this website. When passion strikes or my ire gets up, I have a place to go. At best, nobody reads but I feel better. At bestest (fuck you, I’m using that word), people talk about it or think about what I’ve said, be it right or wrong.
And last, it’s one of those arbitrary measures I mentioned in my last post. Come midnight, no matter what the day has consisted of, I’ve gotten this done. Lone, short, funny, sad, or idiotic, I’ve put it up. It’s out there, and that’s checked off my list for another 24 hours.
It’s come to mind recently because I’m still editing that book. I just want to get it to the next readers so when I realize I still owe (myself) a blog post, all the questions start popping up. I have a book planned right after the edits are done and I’m sure I’ll be trying to find excuses to beg off blogging then. This, here, is my reminder why I should bother.
Here’s to April!